First, I apologize for taking so long to post to the blog. A humble and heartfelt thank you to each of you that have written, called and posted wondering where I am, what I've been up to and if all is well. I was unaware of the number of people who actually read the blog and have been touched by the thoughts bouncing around in my head. I do not take you for granted and appreciate your presence and comments.
The last several weeks have been filled with school and final exams, "volunteer" projects at work, house guests every weekend during the month of April, unexpected death, church obligations, lending a shoulder and listening ear and being there for everyone except myself. Normally, I would suck it up, step into my 4 1/2 inch platform peep-toes and keep it moving. Not this time. I can't deny that I am tired and worn out. I wish I could say that I'm so together that I called a halt to everything and claimed some me time, but I can't. I'm getting a break only because the semester has ended, I've closed out projects at work, co-launched what seems to be the start of a successful campaign at church and shepherded some folks through some emotional land mines. If the movement of time had not brought resolution to these various projects and situations, I'm not sure that I could or would have. I'm so addicted to doing the right thing that I haven't done right for myself. Woosah!
I'm sure you're wondering what does this mean for "18 Months to the Altar." While reading your comments, emails and twitter messages I've wondered the same thing. If you've followed the blog from the beginning, you'll recall that I shared with you the qualities that I want in a husband. Two of those are making me a priority and spending quality time with me. Two biggies given the inconsistency that I have experienced in the recent past. On the other hand, how can I expect to attract someone who will make me a priority and spend quality time with me when I haven't made myself a priority or spent quality time with myself. I have to demonstrate that I am worthy of my own time and attention before anyone else will believe I'm worthy of theirs. I have to show people how I want to be treated so that they can know how to treat me. If anyone has been watching for the last few weeks, I'm sure they don't think I'm worth much effort. Only this week have I finally looked around and noticed the disarray that has become my life. All people know about me right now is that my life is filled with non-romantic commitments and that I'm tired. So, today I recommit to myself and 18 Months to the Altar.
At 9:30am this morning, I will boarding a plane and heading toward Playa del Carmen, Mexico for a much needed week of rest and relaxation. Next month, I'll be traveling to home to celebrate my grandmother's 90th birthday. While there a good friend is arranging dates with two gentlemen that he believes are potential husband material for me. I'll be back one week from today with news from the Mexican Riviera and hopefully two confirmed dates.
Be good to yourself so that others will be good to you too.