Monday, June 13, 2011
I Fell in Love All Over Again
Recently, I've turned my focus toward renewing my friendship with myself. A re-discovery of sorts regarding who I am without any association to some other person, clique, my membership in Delta Sigma Theta, Impact Church, being a PhD student, my status in Atlanta or any other thing outside myself that someone else might use to measure my acceptability or okay-ness. I did this by forcing myself to sit still without the television, mobile device, lap-top, calendar or music. Reading is my escape. I didn't give myself the opportunity to disappear into the pages of a book. However, I did read some inspirational books and check in with some spiritual health gurus. It helps to find confirmation that you're on the right path or to peek in on someone else's journey to know you're not the only kid on the block who's looking for her happy place. I journaled my thoughts and took myself on dates. I didn't tell anyone. I was selfish with me. I wanted all my time and attention. It is in this space that I fell in love all over again.
Last week, I mentioned the book Add More ~ing to Your Life: A Hip Guide to Happiness by Gabrielle Bernstein. It has been a great source of inspiration for me. Also, it is confirmation that I'm on the right path. As I have continued reading, I have discovered that her book addresses many of the things I've already blogged about. I wish I had been aware of it sooner. My other sources of confirmation are other bloggers, life coaches and dreamers that I've met because I began writing this blog. They have rekindled in me stuff I hadn't thought about in years. I got so bogged down in all my other love affairs, that I neglected the one I had been having with myself. No more. This is a love affair I intend to continue and share with my future groom.